"In The Midst Of A Mess God Speaks" by Jessica!"

[Anne B]

 

 

Posted by Jessica on February 1, 2012 at 10:37pm

 

I'm not sure if I'm posting this in the right place or even sure where it's getting ready to go to after I post it, but I have to share this to someone somewhere.

I've struggled my whole life with loving God and understanding life. My grandfather is a pastor but he's not fond of people of color, and I never understood that. Anyways I can go on and on and on with my life story, but I'll just say I've been in and out of foster homes and had a rough life. I myself always believed in God I just haven't always been the best at surrendering to him. With that said the other day me and my mother who has her own struggles was in Goodwill looking around and seeing my older sister who works there (mind you during this moment I'm feeling depressed and unsure of so many things).

While there out of no where I hear an elderly lady sing a Christian I know  very loudly. It was so pretty and I was at a loss for words. I now know and feel so stupid for doubting Him  and every doubting that God was, is, and will always be in my life no matter what happens. I'm just trying and am in awe. And the ironic thing out of it all was later I was talking to my mom about it and before I could finish she cut me off and said "you mean the older lady that was singing," I said "you heard it too". All I can say is GOD IS AMAZING! I hope this helps someone somewhere. God Bless Everyone no matter what the are going thru;-)

[Sr Crystal Mary Lindsey]

Hello Jessica, Praise God that your life has been a struggle....no that may sound hard but I know looking back from experience... we are being shaped to be, that perfect vessel. I just read the most wonderful true story today. It was from a man who turned 44yrs at the end of December. He tell of growing up in hardship and not believing in anything, in fact he was an atheist. Then, he was taken in vision, or dream, he is unsure how, to heaven. He was shown so much.... I believe I will post the story on a blog here because it has uplifted me, and I am sure it will do the same for many others. Meanwhile, be strong in the Lord. it is difficult to understand the Fathers love, when you have never experienced a loving earthly father, I know.  Look out for that Blog, "Jesus is coming soon." much love Crystal

[Anne B]

Permalink Reply by Jessica on February 1, 2012 at 10:40pm                Delete

Sorry for so many mistakes, I hope everyone can understand what I wrote, I'm on an iPhone so it's hard to edit things so bare with me, Thanks!

[Anne B]

Permalink Reply by Amanda Johnson on February 12, 2012 at 9:56pm                Delete

<p>P.S. - No need to apologize...I made a few changes for you ;) If that happens in a post again, just let me know and I'll fix it. Texting a post even from an iPhone can be crazy, but THANK YOU so much for sharing!!</p>" _emptydescriptionerrormessage="Please write something for your reply." _setvalueurl="http://rubyforwomen.ning.com/forum/comment/update?id=5885607%3AComment%3A50832"'>

Thanks for sharing this Jessica! What a beautiful story and a wonderful reminder that God is with us even when we think He isn't. It's the little things He does, His still small voice, that speaks to our hearts when we need Him most!

P.S. - No need to apologize...I made a few changes for you ;)  If that happens in a post again, just let me know and I'll fix it. Texting a post even from an iPhone can be crazy, but THANK YOU so much for sharing!!

[Anne B]

Permalink Reply by Nina Newton on February 16, 2012 at 12:00pm                Delete

Hi Sweetie! So glad you called me the other day . . . . and thanks for posting here. This is a good place to connect with other women who will uphold you in prayer, love you and understand your struggles, because we all have them, too   ;o)  Let's get together next week if you have time and we'll have lunch and then maybe check out all the treasures at one of our favorite thrift shops! Much love, hugs, and prayers, Nina

[Anne B]

Permalink Reply by Alana Maitland on February 16, 2012 at 1:46pm                Delete

Jessica, I appreciated your message.  It is difficult sometimes to believe God loves.  We feel so unworthy.  But the word says he loves each of us.  I have to remind myself of his unconditional love a lot.  Blessing in your journey.

Alana

[Anne B]

Permalink Reply by Anne B on July 15, 2012 at 9:14pm                Delete

Praise God for all the wondrous ways He answers us, encourages us with His Word and in song right when we need it.

Even at times when we least expect it. "Our God Is An Awesome God...." let us give thanks unto His Name.

[Anne B]

Permalink Reply by Sharmelle 'Shar' on September 28, 2012 at 9:27pm                Delete

Thanks for sharing this, Jessica! I have been through some difficult times and rough patches in my life too. I am still struggling, but I am glad you have found your way thus far. God Bless you!

Blessings, Shar